Unnecessary Thoughts

This was not the first time that I’ve hated my life so much. I’ve hated it since the moment I’ve understood things. Since the moment I’ve realized that I’m nothing but a fucked up woman…

The good thing that I’m so proud of is that I’ve learned not to hurt myself anymore, not to cut my wrist, not to beat myself and not to think of geting the rope and tie it around my neck…

I’ve learned how to manage my anxiety and anger and loneliness. What do I do? I just cry myself to sleep, wishing I’ll never wake up anymore. I just want to sleep forever and forget about the world…

I’m nothing but a fucked up woman. Yes, that’s me. I always wanted to kill myself but I don’t wanna die. I never want to die. Why? I’m afraid that I will be forgotten, but I guess I already am…


(credits to the image owner)

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